I am overwhelmed with the idea of God’s merciful love. Lately it has been on my heart and I have learned to understand it in a different way. I had my first child about three months ago. She is such a joy. But she was born sinful, like the rest of us. It is no secret. We all strive naturally from selfish ambition. Thinking we need to please ourselves first. God has been showing me that His love overpowers that when we surrender to Him. It is very difficult to do for some reason. How silly. When I actually surrender I receive a feeling of such peace and the burdens of my life are no longer there. He literally takes away my burdens. I am hurt by the ones I deeply love. I have a love for God that I once thought the closest people in my life had for Him. It is so painful for me to witness these certain people deliberately disobey their Creator. It is just bizarre to me. I guess that comes back to the selfish ambition. It sets my heart a flame to think about it. I yearn inside for them to surrender their lives and selfish ways to a perfect God who is willing to take their burdens too. Don’t get me wrong, please, I know that I am selfish more than sacrificing. I struggle with it every hour! I know that I take things from God into my own hands. But He so lovingly reveals it to me, and that allows me to put my thoughts and actions back into His strong hands. My heart hurts. I see the actions. They change the subject if I bring it up. They are running in the other direction, thinking that their own ways will make their life better. That they will live a fun life without Him. It makes me weep. I can’t describe the feeling in my gut.
Well, dear one who loved me from my first breathe, dear one who saw me grow, I pray for you. I pray that you surrender. That is all I can do right now. I give up and leave this to the Almighty One. I pray you have a heart for Him, because He sure does have a heart for you.
“For the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable. For just as you were at one time disobedient to God but now have received mercy because of their disobedience, so they too have now been disobedient in order that by mercy shown to you they also may now receive mercy. For God has consigned all to disobedience that he may have mercy on all.”
